Harsh Reality

The harch reality is that I am fat. It has been a part of my life for a while now, but no more than it is today. Due to quitting smoking I gained more weight than I wish to disclose, but at least I am smoke free and have been for two and a half years now.

I have tried every weight loss measure possible. Nothing worked or worse yet, I failed because I lost hope and interest. You name it; I don't think there is a plan, pill, shot, or program that I have not tried in the past. I had all but given up.

Two weeks ago, I decided to give life one more chance in the form of a competition based in Atlanta that is geared toward the same format as NBC's Biggest Loser competition. This is Atlanta's Biggest Loser. Although technically they are NOT affiliated with the national program, they base their program similarly to the Biggest Loser program. I never win anything. Well, that is not totally true. When I lived in North Dakota I entered a couple of contests at the local Tastee Freeze. In one contest I won a water float, and the other a whole pig. WOW was I excited. My freezer was full for a year with that oinker. LOLOL

Anyway, back to the subject at hand. LOL I discovered three weeks ago that ABL was asking for people to apply for their newest competition that is due to start on September 20, 2010 and run until December 10, 2010. Twelve weeks to get in shape with the help of Wellstar Health Systems, and Good Measure Meals. I had no hopes or expectations of winning, but I thought, "What the heck. Let's give this a whirl."

I don't remember what I wrote in my application, but I submitted this horrible page of my pictures along with it. Now THAT is a harsh reality. The fact that I was able to put myself out there for all the world to see is amazing. I am not proud of myself. I have allowed myself to get to this point and I am more ashamed than anyone can imagine. I don't like having my picture taken and my smile has all but disappeared. This application is my last hope. I can only sit and wait.